Chapter 14: Cancion Del Amor

...but then the very next moment there was sudden silence in the air, even the breeze had stopped for a few minutes. Some nature lover had fixed a fallen trunk close to the edge so one could sit and watch over the lake, the mountains and the sunset. The moment James saw the log he said pointing out at it, " I think we have enough wood for the campfire, how about we sit there for a while and watch the sunset."? Veron smiled he couldn't resist but say, "Romantic, isn't it?" James punched Veron's arm and exclaimed, "Jerk!"

There was a lot going on in Veron's mind, he was attracted to James in all aspects he could think of, mentally, emotionally, physically, he always felt happy around him. They both enjoyed each other's company, he was well aware of James' sexuality but was confused if what he felt for him was love or just a friendly feeling. While Veron sat there with a oddly confused face, James was lost in the moment. It was perfect, Veron and him, watching the sun set across the mountains far away as the lake reflected the changing colors of the sky.

" Who are we? " said a rather baffled Veron, "we blend into your social group without any efforts. It's like we are.. We are..." James took the moment and whispered"lovers.", a little baffled, a little happy, a little contended at heart Veron gave an affirmative nod. This was the first time Veron was all rosy cheeks.

James leaned forward and gave Veron a peck. Their first peck ever. "I have something planned for you, now you've only made it easier for me.", said James with excitement. Veron was puzzled it was like his concern was answered prematurely. James held Veron's hand and pulled him. "Vamos! Amore! Vamos!"

They reached the camp site, all the three tents were up one for each couple, with an empty center space for the campfire. Veron and James quickly arranged the wood. And lit up a few pieces as it was starting to get dark and cold. Melissa and Louis were sitting outside their tent on a log of wood with beer cans in hand and they seemed to be having a serious conversation, maybe their future together, Veron guessed. While all this Ashley and his guy were inside their tent minding their own business.

Soon after it was dark, they all sat by the campfire enjoying their drinks and eating all the heavy snacks they had got along with them. Everyone except Veron disclosed plans about their future that involved traveling to another city either for further education or to pursue their careers. Louis said he was going to have to hop between cities every month once he took over his dad's business. Melissa wanted to go Delhi for her masters. Ashley and Ron confirmed they would move to a different city together. The chats continued until there was silence in the air again.

To break this silence, James cleared his throat loudly as if to catch everyone's attention. "Dont just sit there, grab your instruments!" Excited, Melissa got her bongo drums, just as excellent as she played the drums, she wooed her guy by belly dancing to its beats by asking him to play it for her. But this time she was just going to play the beats as instructed by James, The gay couple weren't into playing music as much as they were into listening to it, but Ash held a Tambourine in hand. And James with his beloved guitar in hand sat at an angle next to Veron just so he could see him while he played. They started with a soft melody that blended just right with the whispering wind blowing through the forest.

They all were enjoying it, the calmness, the breeze, the subtle warmth of the fire. As their melody progressed it kept on getting faster, there was an unmatched excitement on James face as he gazed at Veron. Veron was as always loving whatever James played. But he stopped playing, looked at Veron and said, this song is just for you.

James sang a queer rendition of "Me Enamore" By Antony Santos. It was the perfect song to describe how they felt for each other. They didn't know how it happened. They didn't know when it happened. All they knew that it had happened.

"me enamore 

me enamore 

y yo no se 

ni como fue 

me enamore 

me enamore 

y yo no se 

ni como fue 

ay mama ay mami que hago yo en 

esta vida asi si ay mi amigo digame 

usted ay que sera de mi"

Veron was stunned when James ended the song with " I dont know if you feel the same way too, but i do love you." Everyone was awstruck, they had broken into silence again, Ash, Ron, Melissa and Louis were looking at Veron, he didnt move, he smiled as he felt his heart beat race against time. After he had soaked in all the warmth that his heart felt for the first time, he murmured, " I do too." He had never been the kind of a guy who would say those words so easy, this time however strongly he wanted to say it to James he was too shy to say it out loud and in front of the others. They continued to sing other songs, laugh, eat and love, until the fire was out and the stars above shined bright. The other two couples went inside for a nap while James and Veron layed in the grass looking at the shimmering lights. Veron expresses how happy he was and finally uttered the "Three golden words" that James was waiting to hear. James was relieved now that he knew the feeling was mutual. He got up kissed Veron's forehead and then they both went inside their tent to nap.

They all woke up at dawn, quickly gathered their stuff and descended to find their Jeep, and they were home by the afternoon.

Chapter 13: Don't change. Stay.

We get used to certain things so easily, we make these small things an intrinsic part of our day to day life. Its always easier to accept a pleasant change than something which is a bit of a course.

But if the path to change is effortful we accept the mundane. Love is no exception to this, Peter was in love again. This time with a student of fashion and technology, Juvin. Eccentricity was a part of Juvin's personality. For the early 2000s he was a lil to 2010. He could spot and name more than seven colors in a rainbow. There were seventeen shades of blue alone. He was obsessed with colors and detail. Everything had to be in place. Peter was  often intrigued by Juvin's behavior, he thought it was some kind of ocd.

It was three and a half months now that they were seeing each other. Juvin was about to graduate from his institution. Their lovely encounters at Juvin's hostel were about to end. That late night entry into the hostel. Sneaking in past midnight without waking up the night guard. Making love on the lower bunk while his roomie slept on the one above. 

And it was okay, if his roomie caught them in a scene. It was a perfectly homophilic environment and it made Peter comfortable. He wished that the world outside was like that too. But two men were not meant to be in the kind of love he shared with juvin or his previous love affairs. Like somebody has rightly quoted. "As a sociery we are more comfortable watching two men hold guns, than hold hands."

It was illegal for men to have sexual intercourse with other men. Where would love have its stand in such a state? It was better off to stay inside a room and be who he wanted to be rather than facing the harsh words of the world. But someday, just someday it would change, peter hoped for a change to happen in the society. Until then he was happy being inside the closet. 

On the other hand Peter was getting uncomfortable with the thought that Juvin was going to graduate and would possibly move to another city in search of a job. Peter wished he could follow but he couldn't leave home, his studies, for a love thats only a few months old. They were fighting for love. Over love. Over Juvin's plans to move to another city, perhaps eccentricity was the harsh reality that Peter had finally come to face.

The mind is weird it only accepts the change that it wants to.