Finally peter was getting a
grip on his life he was doing everything he wished to, learn, earn and love.
Doing his bachelor's degree
in computers, this decision was rather taken randomly and uncalculated, but
he was sailing through it well, he also realized he was good with using and
abusing softwares, smartly he collided his artsy side with where he was going,
he freelanced any kind of design work that came his way. It was helping him
save money for his future and also for the lil treats now and then. He was a
doodler! He even designed a jersey and logo for his class football team he was
forcefully a part of. He prefered watching any game than playing it out in the
sun. He wasn't much of an athlete, not a good runner at all, and his hands to
vision coordination was almost not there while catching a ball. He wouldn't be
ashamed of it, he laughed about it instead. His friends excluded him from
cricket and made him the goalkeeper in football, he was the ultimate goalee they
said.
Peter reconnected with Rene
over internet. they had their closure, they both agreed. But they both again
thought they really didn't need to, it was a silly attraction they concluded,
they laughed. This time they were really connecting together but to avoid any undue
consequences he decided to tell her about his tastes. He wasn't sure of how to
put his feelings in words, he was concerned of how she would feel to find out
that her first boyfriend is gay and had always been that even before they met.
He gathered all the courage
and asked her to meet over coffee, she had a clue that something was wrong and
lingering in his mind and that he wanted to let out. They met at a coffee shop at Dadar, she didn't hesitate being seen on a coffee date in her vicinity, they
were just a few blocks away from her home. She was a bold girl for one! Well
the coffee was accompanied by just random talks and memories from before, she
could sense he was getting comfortable as time was passing by. You're beautiful
by James blunt was playing in the background and suddenly, Peter looked nervous,
Rene asked "Are you alright?", "Yes" he replied and
continued "do you hear that song? It reminds me of someone." he
stopped. She sensed he wasn't liking it there anymore she asked "Do you
wanna go outside?". He got up promptly and they walked towards the sea,
sat by the seashore watching the waves hit the rocks over and over again.
She broke that awkward
silence, "You can tell me." Peter wanted to and he did, he told her
he was gay and how it all began for him, how he didn't want to change just to
fit in, his first love affair, how it wasn't his intention fall in puppy love
with her. She was shaken for a while, again it was sheer silence, Peter's heart
raced faster with every wave hitting the rocks and every glance at Rene.
She smiled after a while,
said it was okay. She didn't find it obnoxious either, she asked for details about
his love affair, Peter was overwhelmed to share his life and feelings. She
teased him with chehon's name just to watch him blush. She cared. It was late in the evening now,
he dropped her home and bid adieu to meet again, he was contented as this was
the first time he ever came out to anyone. He was finally learning to express
his feelings.
No comments:
Post a Comment